DAD! CHECK YOUR CALENDAR AND FLIP IT! It's the LAST DAY OF JULY! YEAH! Tomorrow is AUGUST! I know I don't know the order of things yet, but I know that each day down is one closer to you being back home with us, and Mama's friends kept texting her (the military girls) getting all giddy about it being August... gotta love that they get excited about things like that huh? So, I guess I can be excited along with them right?!
We didn't make it to church- again :( Mama tried to set an alarm to get up, but got up really early this morning- went on the ellyptical, then fell back asleep, and I was sound asleep with her, and we completely slept through the first service, and we don't really like going to 2nd service JUST IN CASE you get online- we don't like missing you.
Mama, Grandpa, Grandma, and I went up to Great Grandma Lohman's house. Everyone wanted to see me, and once/twice a month the cousins/uncles/aunts try to get together at her house, so we went up for a few hours. Great Grandma held me for the longest, but shared (even though it was hard for her to let me go)- the last time Mama, Aunt Em, Nana, and I went up (when I was almost a month old) Great Grandma said she "wasn't done with Kenzie" when Mama said they should probably get going, so she told Grandpa HE had to tell her that we had to go... haha :) We had a nice time- Aunt Paula, her girls, Aunt Ronna, Rachel, Aunt Karen, Uncle Marshal, and their kids were there- people are busy, so not everyone was there, but it was nice- they all LOVE me and asked how you're doing... they all miss you a lot too.
We got home and I was REALLY tired, but my new "game" is to try to stay awake, BUT Mama knows the "game" and I just love when she lays me on her chest- I can't help but calm down and fall asleep, so that's what she did (I was SCREAMING) and as soon as I laid on her chest I immediately stopped and fell asleep... it gets me everytime... she has the "touch" people say... that, or she's just my Mama and I love that position... anyways... that was my day! It was a bit long, but seemed to go faster than the past few days just because we got your email! Thanks daddy- we know you try to get ahold of us when you can and you hate being on blackouts (not as much as we hate it, but we know it's a bummer) so we really appreciate you updating us when you can! You working out much? I'm still growing so you and Mama need to keep up- you have to hold me! :) I love you daddy- can't wait until you're home to snuggle with me (AND Mama- I guess she can join too)... but you better be ready to hold me- I won't want you to put me down that's for sure! Cya soon dad!
Love, love, love YOU!
Kenzie
Monday, August 1, 2011
July 30, 2011
HI DAD! Mama, I, and her friend, Lou (Palmer) went to the Farmer's Market this morning- Lou was up here for a week, and has been wanting to hang out with us, but it didn't work out until this morning. Mama's 2nd grade teacher held me for a bit which was nice- kind of hard to talk/catch up at the Market but it's ok. Then, Lou came over and held me for a bit. Mama and Uncle Nate played the kinect game for awhile... Mama and Uncle Nate returned pop bottles and got a hot-n-ready pizza for lunch (even though Mama can't eat it), but everyone thought it was really nice because they were all doing stuff, but Mama wanted everyone to take a break and be together....THEN, Mama and Nana went to see Horrible Boss' while Uncle Nate and Grandpa saw Captain America. I guess Nana has an 'immature sense of humor' because they keep making fun of her- she really liked Hangover, and thought Horrible Boss' was hilarious (which Mama said it had it's really funny parts, but some of it was pretty 'immature'- not that Mama is THAT mature haha lol)... they enjoyed themselves while I stayed home with Great Aunt Jean. I like when she watches me because she WON'T put me down (she doesn't want me to cry) so I get to be held the ENTIRE TIME of however long they're all gone for- hehe.
When they got home, I got to go over to Grandma's house for a bit. She held me almost the whole time too! I got to play with my sister Daisy... I saw Panzer, but Panzer just kind of sniffs me, looks at me, and just stares- Daisy at least gives me kisses... ;) I had a really nice day being held by everyone for the majority of the day and dreaming about YOU! I LOVE YOU DADDY! CYA SOON!
Love,
Kenz
When they got home, I got to go over to Grandma's house for a bit. She held me almost the whole time too! I got to play with my sister Daisy... I saw Panzer, but Panzer just kind of sniffs me, looks at me, and just stares- Daisy at least gives me kisses... ;) I had a really nice day being held by everyone for the majority of the day and dreaming about YOU! I LOVE YOU DADDY! CYA SOON!
Love,
Kenz
July 29, 2011
Hi Daddy! How's everything going? We miss you like CRAZY! Mama always gets worried when she doesn't hear from you- worried, and she misses you THAT MUCH MORE.. so do I... but it's ok, because we pray so much/so often/so hard ALL THE TIME for YOU and everyone with you... Mama prays, and I listen- we seriously pray at least once an hour... it calms us both down a lot. :) Your guys' friend, Eliesha Delmastro sent Mama a text message saying she heard from her husband (Travis) that he sent her an email right before the blackout happened that said "Lohman and I are ok"... which was so nice just hearing- glad you both keep us up-to-date as best as you can and are looking out for each other. :)
Mama and I hung out all day and got things done around the house- ran some errands, and just rested a bit. Uncle Nate and Mama went for a run/bike ride (Uncle Nate decided he needed to encourage her while running) so he rode alongside Mama while she ran- she ran 5miles! Not too shabby after having me huh? She didn't stop either- I guess it was all that frustration she had lol... she hasn't ran with me in the jogging stroller because she said she has to get back up to her "old running" time/strength first... makes sense, but I'm sure soon enough she'll take me- she hates not being with me... probably because she thinks she's hanging out with you because I'm your mini-me LOL ;) We can't wait to hear from you daddy- EVERYONE is asking about you and waiting for you to come home! We LOVE YOU!
Love,
Kenzie girl
Mama and I hung out all day and got things done around the house- ran some errands, and just rested a bit. Uncle Nate and Mama went for a run/bike ride (Uncle Nate decided he needed to encourage her while running) so he rode alongside Mama while she ran- she ran 5miles! Not too shabby after having me huh? She didn't stop either- I guess it was all that frustration she had lol... she hasn't ran with me in the jogging stroller because she said she has to get back up to her "old running" time/strength first... makes sense, but I'm sure soon enough she'll take me- she hates not being with me... probably because she thinks she's hanging out with you because I'm your mini-me LOL ;) We can't wait to hear from you daddy- EVERYONE is asking about you and waiting for you to come home! We LOVE YOU!
Love,
Kenzie girl
Sunday, July 31, 2011
CAUTION: *rant ahead*
I know that there have been plenty of times where I've opened my mouth, and should've kept it shut as shortly afterwards, inserted my foot into my mouth. I also know there have been times in which I've said things to military members and not thought twice until I've been in that situation... but how about I save people the mistake of some people...
Throughout this deployment I have had many people say outlandish things to myself or my parents... and usually, I'm told things when people ASK me how I'm doing... when I answer "ok- I haven't heard from him in a few days, as we're on a blackout (meaning someone has been KIA)", or "ok, it's been hard the past few days"... that's USUALLY about the time when that person (who ASKED ME how I was doing- maybe I should just NOT answer with the TRUTH)... says something like, "well, YOU DID sign up for this ya know..." OK. PLEASE. STOP. RIGHT. THERE. I didn't "sign" anything but my marriage license. I "signed up" for this life by supporting my husband who is SAVING YOU and your sorry-self, family, friends who didn't "sign up". My husband "signed up" so you can say those things. (Again, this is only a rant, so please, don't take offense to any of this... just merely trying to help people understand things). Again, I didn't "sign up" for anything... and when you say things like that, it makes one think that I KNEW that there would be blackouts, that I KNEW that we would lose friends during this deployment, that I KNEW how hard this "lifestyle" can be... seriously?! Did I tell you "well, you signed up for that" if you lose a job, family member, or things don't go according to plan, or when you're just venting a bit? NO, I didn't, so don't tell me that either.
When communications are down, I've gotten, "well, why don't you just call/text him"... or when I freak out because my phone doesn't have service, or it dies, one says "don't worry, he'll leave you a message"... ok, first of all, the soldiers had to leave their phones here- I can't just "text/call" him when I want... I am one of those sorry people that sit by the computer or hold my phone all day/night just to make sure I don't miss him... and give me a break when I freak out about not wanting to miss his call/message... he's going through more things than I or you will ever know, and if he wants to talk to me, this is my job- to wait for him and be there for him- even if it's just to listen to him. You try going days without hearing ANYTHING from your loved one who is in a war-zone, and let me know how that goes for you... the waiting for that call/email/chat.
"He'll be back before you know it" or "it hasn't seemed THAT long..." ok... I've HONESTLY used this line to my military friends- it's something we say to try to help/encourage that time will keep moving... BUT it doesn't make it any easier. Yes, time DOES seem to go by quickly (at times), but those times that you wait, and wait, and wait, seem like weeks... and yes, at times, it doesn't seem like almost 8months ago I kissed/held my husband... but the reality is, it WAS about 8 months ago, and that's 8 months on ANY/ALL calendars... it's still a long time. I know come December, I'll be thinking "wow, that didn't seem THAT long," but half of that is plain denial, and a coping method, but I know I will never forget those days where I sat, praying to hear something.
When I was expecting Kenzie, I got a LOT of "well, won't he be able to come home for the birth? WHY can't he come home for her birth? I can't believe he's not going to be here for the birth..." For those of you who have had a child- did the birth go according to plan? Did you KNOW when you were going to have your baby? Probably not. My husband couldn't come home for her birth because there's a "time-frame" for the soldiers on when they might be able to come home, and as it is with the military, it's not set-in-stone. He couldn't come home for her birth because he was doing something that was bigger than himself and it's where he needed to be at this point in our lives. As for him not being here- he WAS here- he skyped the whole thing, and I've never felt so much more connected... and if we had it our way, he would have "been" here, but it is what it is... he obviously would've been here if he could have, but don't worry- he's an amazing dad and will be "here" for as much as he can for her life... he may not have "been here" for her birth but he will be here and completely involved in every part of her life, thanks.
I should stop with the ranting before I get ahead of myself... again, by no means am I trying to offend anyone, but more just venting about stuff in general... just try to think before you speak... :)
Throughout this deployment I have had many people say outlandish things to myself or my parents... and usually, I'm told things when people ASK me how I'm doing... when I answer "ok- I haven't heard from him in a few days, as we're on a blackout (meaning someone has been KIA)", or "ok, it's been hard the past few days"... that's USUALLY about the time when that person (who ASKED ME how I was doing- maybe I should just NOT answer with the TRUTH)... says something like, "well, YOU DID sign up for this ya know..." OK. PLEASE. STOP. RIGHT. THERE. I didn't "sign" anything but my marriage license. I "signed up" for this life by supporting my husband who is SAVING YOU and your sorry-self, family, friends who didn't "sign up". My husband "signed up" so you can say those things. (Again, this is only a rant, so please, don't take offense to any of this... just merely trying to help people understand things). Again, I didn't "sign up" for anything... and when you say things like that, it makes one think that I KNEW that there would be blackouts, that I KNEW that we would lose friends during this deployment, that I KNEW how hard this "lifestyle" can be... seriously?! Did I tell you "well, you signed up for that" if you lose a job, family member, or things don't go according to plan, or when you're just venting a bit? NO, I didn't, so don't tell me that either.
When communications are down, I've gotten, "well, why don't you just call/text him"... or when I freak out because my phone doesn't have service, or it dies, one says "don't worry, he'll leave you a message"... ok, first of all, the soldiers had to leave their phones here- I can't just "text/call" him when I want... I am one of those sorry people that sit by the computer or hold my phone all day/night just to make sure I don't miss him... and give me a break when I freak out about not wanting to miss his call/message... he's going through more things than I or you will ever know, and if he wants to talk to me, this is my job- to wait for him and be there for him- even if it's just to listen to him. You try going days without hearing ANYTHING from your loved one who is in a war-zone, and let me know how that goes for you... the waiting for that call/email/chat.
"He'll be back before you know it" or "it hasn't seemed THAT long..." ok... I've HONESTLY used this line to my military friends- it's something we say to try to help/encourage that time will keep moving... BUT it doesn't make it any easier. Yes, time DOES seem to go by quickly (at times), but those times that you wait, and wait, and wait, seem like weeks... and yes, at times, it doesn't seem like almost 8months ago I kissed/held my husband... but the reality is, it WAS about 8 months ago, and that's 8 months on ANY/ALL calendars... it's still a long time. I know come December, I'll be thinking "wow, that didn't seem THAT long," but half of that is plain denial, and a coping method, but I know I will never forget those days where I sat, praying to hear something.
When I was expecting Kenzie, I got a LOT of "well, won't he be able to come home for the birth? WHY can't he come home for her birth? I can't believe he's not going to be here for the birth..." For those of you who have had a child- did the birth go according to plan? Did you KNOW when you were going to have your baby? Probably not. My husband couldn't come home for her birth because there's a "time-frame" for the soldiers on when they might be able to come home, and as it is with the military, it's not set-in-stone. He couldn't come home for her birth because he was doing something that was bigger than himself and it's where he needed to be at this point in our lives. As for him not being here- he WAS here- he skyped the whole thing, and I've never felt so much more connected... and if we had it our way, he would have "been" here, but it is what it is... he obviously would've been here if he could have, but don't worry- he's an amazing dad and will be "here" for as much as he can for her life... he may not have "been here" for her birth but he will be here and completely involved in every part of her life, thanks.
I should stop with the ranting before I get ahead of myself... again, by no means am I trying to offend anyone, but more just venting about stuff in general... just try to think before you speak... :)
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Kenzie
Whoa- WHERE HAS THE TIME GONE!? Praise the LORD... seriously. This deployment NEEDS to get going! Kenzie arrived a month (and a day) ago... she's been such a blessing, and has helped make this year go a bit faster- that, or maybe I just don't even know if it's day/night or WHAT day it really is... phew, this mama needs some serious sleep! I hear I'll get "sleep" in like 18 years... but, I'm 24 and I know MY mom STILL stays up and worries about me if I'm out, traveling, etc... sooo, cool, it was nice knowing you "sleep"!... jk... I love EVERY minute with her- even those 3am feedings where my eyes are about to pop out of my head as I'm looking at the clock to make sure I didn't JUST put her back to sleep... I swear, there's been PLENTY of times where I hear her cry and I'm like "no way... I JUST put you to sleep..." (checks the clock) "no way... it IS time for you to eat"... yup, even THOSE moments I just love, love, love.
I absolutely adore Kenzie- I can't help but catch myself starting at her for 45minutes (and Caleb wonders WHAT we "do" during the day... hmmm, does "staring at our baby for hours on end" count as SOMETHING?) I just love it though... and love every single part of her, but that could also be because she's a mini-me of Caleb... yeah, no joke. Her eyes haven't changed, and we're still waiting on her hair color to "decide" what it's going to be... but besides that, she has his nose, his eyes, ears, face, etc... she has my lips and that's about it... I guess she also has a bit of my "stubborn-ness"- but I'm pretty proud of the fact that I'm still MORE stubborn than she is, which helps in those times of her apparently STARVING (even though she JUST ate) but yet spits her formula out and "giggles"... *insert bottle BACK into the mouth* "girlfriend, I know you're hungry- it's 3:30am and you NEED to eat this"... *spits out more formula and "giggles"... "oh no... I KNOW you're hungry- I know it's not AS WARM as you'd like, but seriously..." *after about 5-10minutes of this, ding ding ding- MAMA WINS! as Kenzie finishes the entire bottle*. She also apparently has allergy issues-- just like me... whooo, yeah, she has the BEST qualities of me... psh. How come I carried her and was sick almost every day and she looks JUST LIKE Caleb?! jk... REALLY, I LOVE every part of her... especially those times when I'm REALLY missing my better half (her "twin") and all I have to do is look at her, see her daddy, and then realize just how blessed we are... aghhhhhhhhhhh... love, love, love it.
I absolutely adore Kenzie- I can't help but catch myself starting at her for 45minutes (and Caleb wonders WHAT we "do" during the day... hmmm, does "staring at our baby for hours on end" count as SOMETHING?) I just love it though... and love every single part of her, but that could also be because she's a mini-me of Caleb... yeah, no joke. Her eyes haven't changed, and we're still waiting on her hair color to "decide" what it's going to be... but besides that, she has his nose, his eyes, ears, face, etc... she has my lips and that's about it... I guess she also has a bit of my "stubborn-ness"- but I'm pretty proud of the fact that I'm still MORE stubborn than she is, which helps in those times of her apparently STARVING (even though she JUST ate) but yet spits her formula out and "giggles"... *insert bottle BACK into the mouth* "girlfriend, I know you're hungry- it's 3:30am and you NEED to eat this"... *spits out more formula and "giggles"... "oh no... I KNOW you're hungry- I know it's not AS WARM as you'd like, but seriously..." *after about 5-10minutes of this, ding ding ding- MAMA WINS! as Kenzie finishes the entire bottle*. She also apparently has allergy issues-- just like me... whooo, yeah, she has the BEST qualities of me... psh. How come I carried her and was sick almost every day and she looks JUST LIKE Caleb?! jk... REALLY, I LOVE every part of her... especially those times when I'm REALLY missing my better half (her "twin") and all I have to do is look at her, see her daddy, and then realize just how blessed we are... aghhhhhhhhhhh... love, love, love it.
Thursday, May 26, 2011
"No news is good news"
The phrase "no news is good news" is definitely over-rated... I never fully understood this whole concept until Caleb deployed. Since December, this is the ONE phrase that I would just like to throw out the window... it's true, but at the same point, it seriously sucks, and I feel that over the past 5 months, this quote has been more present than ever...
Caleb deployed with over 3000 other soldiers to Afghanistan between December and January. As I've said before, I don't know ALL of these men and women, or their families, but I "know" them... I know the hardships they're facing, and to some extent, I know of them... someone I know really knows them. When the worst-possible thing can happen during a deployment, we go on a "blackout"... for those that are in the military, a blackout is one of the worst things to deal with. Blackouts can last anywhere between a few hours to a week or more... I can't even begin to describe all the emotions that come with a blackout. Anger, fear, guilt, hope, sorrow, worry, doubt, dread, anxiousness, etc... Someone, somewhere is receiving the worst possible news... my heart skips a beat every time my phone rings or heaven forbid someone drives down my street/towards my house, or even worse, comes innocently to my parent's house... we've been on at least 2 hands-worth of "blackouts" this deployment alone, and it never gets any easier.
Some ask how I know we're on a blackout.. well, when you have spouses back here waiting every single day to hear from their loved ones, there comes a certain time in the day where if you don't hear from them, you start to ask other wives if they've heard anything. Once you get to more than a handful of wives that haven't heard from their soldier (out of all the units we sent from Fort Knox) we know what it is. So, this is what it is to wait... waiting for some type of news- any news, from anyone really. We all text each other back and forth like crazy, and go on facebook for ANY sort of communication from any husband deployed. We just wait... and that's the hardest. I can't even begin to tell you how many text messages I've gotten from wives, how many times I've looked at the clock and realized that it's been 2minutes since the last time I checked, how many times I've hit the "refresh" button on FB, my email, or FB chat to see if there's been ANYTHING. My stomach is in knots, my head hurts, and I've been fighting back tears all day just waiting. I can't even begin to describe my chats with God today... almost begging or making some type of bargains with Him... I have never prayed so much or so hard in my entire life, but throughout this deployment, it's the one thing that I still find comforting (besides the times I'm talking to Caleb)... I know God is in complete control of things, and I just need more faith at times, but in these times, I'm still trying to find faith... and still trying to hold on to the hope and faith that I have left, but at times it still doesn't seem enough. Caleb uses the "no news is good news", as well as many of our friends and family... and while the saying comes from the military (and especially during "blackout" times), hearing it said aloud doesn't make it any easier. At some point, SOMEONE is going to get news... and while the waiting for "no news" or ANY news is hard, it's almost harder KNOWING... knowing that someone has given their life for our freedom, that someone has been told the worst news possible, and at times, it's someone my husband and I know. It just hits way too close to home- even if it's not a soldier my husband works/lives with, it's a soldier that we "know"...
When a blackout is lifted, the people not directly involved take a huge sigh of relief, and can actually breathe again... we're able to finally talk with our husbands, and we all start texting each other letting the others know, that we've heard from our loved one, and that all is well b/c "no news is good news" until we hear from them... however, upon talking with our husbands, we hear what happened, and know why we were on a blackout and that's when the reality sets in... it may not have been us, but it IS someone we know... and then we get the phone calls and mass emails about a memorial service, or the family involved, or how we can help... it just saddens me and again, hits too close to home. My husband whom I love with all my heart and is my entire world is still over there, fighting for us, for those "over there", and fighting for his life. 5 months "down" with this deployment, and two-handfuls of "blackouts" and it doesn't get easier... in fact, I think it just gets harder... it's one day closer to being with my beloved, but it's also another day that he's over there and not here...
Caleb deployed with over 3000 other soldiers to Afghanistan between December and January. As I've said before, I don't know ALL of these men and women, or their families, but I "know" them... I know the hardships they're facing, and to some extent, I know of them... someone I know really knows them. When the worst-possible thing can happen during a deployment, we go on a "blackout"... for those that are in the military, a blackout is one of the worst things to deal with. Blackouts can last anywhere between a few hours to a week or more... I can't even begin to describe all the emotions that come with a blackout. Anger, fear, guilt, hope, sorrow, worry, doubt, dread, anxiousness, etc... Someone, somewhere is receiving the worst possible news... my heart skips a beat every time my phone rings or heaven forbid someone drives down my street/towards my house, or even worse, comes innocently to my parent's house... we've been on at least 2 hands-worth of "blackouts" this deployment alone, and it never gets any easier.
Some ask how I know we're on a blackout.. well, when you have spouses back here waiting every single day to hear from their loved ones, there comes a certain time in the day where if you don't hear from them, you start to ask other wives if they've heard anything. Once you get to more than a handful of wives that haven't heard from their soldier (out of all the units we sent from Fort Knox) we know what it is. So, this is what it is to wait... waiting for some type of news- any news, from anyone really. We all text each other back and forth like crazy, and go on facebook for ANY sort of communication from any husband deployed. We just wait... and that's the hardest. I can't even begin to tell you how many text messages I've gotten from wives, how many times I've looked at the clock and realized that it's been 2minutes since the last time I checked, how many times I've hit the "refresh" button on FB, my email, or FB chat to see if there's been ANYTHING. My stomach is in knots, my head hurts, and I've been fighting back tears all day just waiting. I can't even begin to describe my chats with God today... almost begging or making some type of bargains with Him... I have never prayed so much or so hard in my entire life, but throughout this deployment, it's the one thing that I still find comforting (besides the times I'm talking to Caleb)... I know God is in complete control of things, and I just need more faith at times, but in these times, I'm still trying to find faith... and still trying to hold on to the hope and faith that I have left, but at times it still doesn't seem enough. Caleb uses the "no news is good news", as well as many of our friends and family... and while the saying comes from the military (and especially during "blackout" times), hearing it said aloud doesn't make it any easier. At some point, SOMEONE is going to get news... and while the waiting for "no news" or ANY news is hard, it's almost harder KNOWING... knowing that someone has given their life for our freedom, that someone has been told the worst news possible, and at times, it's someone my husband and I know. It just hits way too close to home- even if it's not a soldier my husband works/lives with, it's a soldier that we "know"...
When a blackout is lifted, the people not directly involved take a huge sigh of relief, and can actually breathe again... we're able to finally talk with our husbands, and we all start texting each other letting the others know, that we've heard from our loved one, and that all is well b/c "no news is good news" until we hear from them... however, upon talking with our husbands, we hear what happened, and know why we were on a blackout and that's when the reality sets in... it may not have been us, but it IS someone we know... and then we get the phone calls and mass emails about a memorial service, or the family involved, or how we can help... it just saddens me and again, hits too close to home. My husband whom I love with all my heart and is my entire world is still over there, fighting for us, for those "over there", and fighting for his life. 5 months "down" with this deployment, and two-handfuls of "blackouts" and it doesn't get easier... in fact, I think it just gets harder... it's one day closer to being with my beloved, but it's also another day that he's over there and not here...
Monday, May 16, 2011
"I just realized what meat really is..."
I have realized that the past blogs have been completely venting, complaining, and not really "like me"... however, I am attributing it completely to my better half being gone- the one whom I share everything with... and being sick with CRAZY pregnant hormones raging... BUT while chatting with my sister the other day I was reminded on one of my "better moments"... so here goes, but please, don't judge me... I'm sharing this openly with you all hoping that someone finds a bit of humor in it... yes, it's ok to laugh AT me...
Last year I was reading a story about a vegetarian woman in one of my magazines... when all of a sudden I read something about meat being muscle... I literally stopped breathing... I felt as if I had been lied to my entire life by NOT really knowing "what meat was"... true- I KNEW what meat was, I just didn't really THINK about it... I think of it as being, or wanting to be naive about it all, so just refused to think about what I was eating... however, it blew me away... just KNOWING that meat was in fact muscle... I quick called Caleb and texted my sister... who has since saved this text so that I can share it with you... "Sarah:OH MY GOSH!!! I am going vegetarian...no joke... I JUST realized what meat really is... muscle?!?! Are you freakin for real?! I feel like I have been lied to my whole entire life... oh my gosh, oh my gosh... freaking out right now..." TWO seconds later (I really don't even know how the girl read the text that fast) my phone rang with my sister and her friends/colleagues hysterically laughing... my sister was absolutely appalled that I had "just realized" what meat was... thanks for the support Em! Again, I really did know what meat is/was... but just didn't really THINK about it... later that night Caleb came home from work only to further my fear of meat... when I was talking to him about my "epiphany" he quick grabbed Daisy's leg and said "babe, it's just like taking a bite out of her sweet little leg..." REALLY CALEB?! I ran out of the room only to have Caleb laughing so loudly chasing me around the house, hugging me and saying he loved me and was sorry... about a month after that whole ordeal, (at this point I WAS eating meat, but only chicken and it had to be cut a certain way, and there was NO THOUGHT involved while eating... just eat, chew, swallow...) Caleb and I were out to dinner- I had an AWESOME salad with grilled chicken on top- he had finished his dinner and really wanted to try my salad, but I wasn't about to share, as it was THAT good... sooo, what does he say? with a sparkle in his eye and a huge grin on his face..."How's that muscle salad babe!?" I couldn't help but laugh (gag a little) and pass the plate to him... who thoroughly enjoyed the leftover salad... again, I am TELLING you that I really did know what meat was... just chose not to think about it... I still have a bit of a hard time when I THINK about it... but oh well... at least it's out of our Caleb and I's system... but mark my words, if ANYONE EVER tells Kenzie and our other children what they're eating I will go NUTS on you... ;)
Last year I was reading a story about a vegetarian woman in one of my magazines... when all of a sudden I read something about meat being muscle... I literally stopped breathing... I felt as if I had been lied to my entire life by NOT really knowing "what meat was"... true- I KNEW what meat was, I just didn't really THINK about it... I think of it as being, or wanting to be naive about it all, so just refused to think about what I was eating... however, it blew me away... just KNOWING that meat was in fact muscle... I quick called Caleb and texted my sister... who has since saved this text so that I can share it with you... "Sarah:OH MY GOSH!!! I am going vegetarian...no joke... I JUST realized what meat really is... muscle?!?! Are you freakin for real?! I feel like I have been lied to my whole entire life... oh my gosh, oh my gosh... freaking out right now..." TWO seconds later (I really don't even know how the girl read the text that fast) my phone rang with my sister and her friends/colleagues hysterically laughing... my sister was absolutely appalled that I had "just realized" what meat was... thanks for the support Em! Again, I really did know what meat is/was... but just didn't really THINK about it... later that night Caleb came home from work only to further my fear of meat... when I was talking to him about my "epiphany" he quick grabbed Daisy's leg and said "babe, it's just like taking a bite out of her sweet little leg..." REALLY CALEB?! I ran out of the room only to have Caleb laughing so loudly chasing me around the house, hugging me and saying he loved me and was sorry... about a month after that whole ordeal, (at this point I WAS eating meat, but only chicken and it had to be cut a certain way, and there was NO THOUGHT involved while eating... just eat, chew, swallow...) Caleb and I were out to dinner- I had an AWESOME salad with grilled chicken on top- he had finished his dinner and really wanted to try my salad, but I wasn't about to share, as it was THAT good... sooo, what does he say? with a sparkle in his eye and a huge grin on his face..."How's that muscle salad babe!?" I couldn't help but laugh (gag a little) and pass the plate to him... who thoroughly enjoyed the leftover salad... again, I am TELLING you that I really did know what meat was... just chose not to think about it... I still have a bit of a hard time when I THINK about it... but oh well... at least it's out of our Caleb and I's system... but mark my words, if ANYONE EVER tells Kenzie and our other children what they're eating I will go NUTS on you... ;)
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